today

today turned out a lot differently than i expected. tim and i received news we had been waiting for but the news was not what we expected. tim looked absolutely deflated upon hearing the information. i was torn. torn because i knew what he was thinking/feeling and torn because i still wanted to be happy about it all.

i feel strangely sad when i should feel nothing but joy. i know it will pass but i just wanted to write my feelings down before i lost them in the sea of thoughts streaming through my brain at any given moment.

i am going to go to bed bummed because that is my general mood of the day, but i hope i wake up with rejuvenated spirits. i know everything happens for a reason. i just don't always know the reason.

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  1. Everything does happen for a reason! I hope everything turns out for the best :)

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  2. There's no 'fixed' way of reacting to something so don't be downhearted that you didn't respond in the way you expected, just give yourself time to reflect.Rx

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  3. Oh dear. I know what's that like - just as you finally get on board and start acclimatizing to a new idea, the idea is no longer a possibility. I can understand why you feel torn! x

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