Today I wish...

I woke up this morning feeling a little blue. To fight the grumpy, I decided to clean the house. I can't tell you how many times I just close my eyes or pretend not to see the mess that surrounds me. Today, I couldn't stand the mess. So I cleaned and cleaned until all the rooms sparkled and smelled like my lemon dust spray. I love to dust. Tim thinks I am crazy, but it is the one part of cleaning that actually makes me smile. I find it very relaxing and satisfying since you can see the result immediately after one swipe. The house is finished and while I wait for Mya to wake up from her nap so we can play, I am thinking about wishes. If I could wish for a few things today it would be:
--The ability to see without glasses or contacts. My body had one really adverse reaction to my pregnancy with Mya that affected my eyes. I know people probably wonder why I switched to glasses. It was not by choice. My eyes changed in such a way that contacts don't stay put on my eyes. I have been to my eye doctor for over a year and tried more than 25 pairs of contacts just to come to the conclusion that I will never really enjoy wearing contacts again. I don't love wearing glasses. They make it hard to run or to do Zumba. They make it hard for me to want to do eye makeup. They make it hard to play with Mya because she always swats them from my face. Today...I don't want to wear glasses or contacts. I just want to see what everyone else can see without squinting.
--To wear earrings without my ears swelling. I love what other people can do with jewelry. I love cute earrings but dread wearing them knowing my ears will start bleeding and blow up to an enormous size.
--That my back didn't constantly hurt. I can't even stand sitting for long periods of time because my back aches so bad. No idea why. I have just always had a bad back.
--To see my mom. I guess you could say mother's day is influencing this wish. I just wish I could be there to help her when she needs it most.
--To see friends I haven't seen in awhile. I feel a bit nostalgic. I even want to see friends I just saw like Rusty and Whit. I was craving a visit with them this morning. I wish they could come eat pie with us tonight.
--To cuddle with Tim. This will have to wait because we have a busy afternoon planned.
--For a baby. Sigh.

It's fun and frustrating to wish because you know it won't really happen today or tomorrow (well, except for the cuddling wish). But I will continue to wish.

2 comments :

  1. Well, I wish that all your wishes come true. Regarding the eye make- up; just do it. Even when you don't want to. Probably especially when you don't want to. You'll feel instantly sexy and put together.

    And post script: Happy Mother's Day young lady! I hope that you felt loved and appreciated today.

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  2. Thanks for the post. Sometimes hearing other people's wishes helps me recognize blessings I have that I don't always appreciate. It also helps me realize that some of my wishes are a little outlandish and I should be called back to reality.

    I wish June wasn't so far away so I could stop by your house, share some good stories, enjoy some good laughs, receive good advice, and just enjoy your company...

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