Uncertainty is unsettling. No matter the situation (ie, waiting for a baby and/or adoption, searching for a job, caring for an ailing loved one, finding your way in a new city), uncertainty stretches the soul and humbles the heart. However, even though periods of uncertainty may feel awkward and painful, I believe that it is in these moments where we can find real peace if we search for it.
Pain makes me acutely aware of a need for healing. And like pain, uncertainty makes me aware of a need for a higher power that can patch things up from the inside out. Every path I've ever taken--no matter how dark it may have been in the beginning--has always ended in sunshine. I have learned to search for peace when I can't find any solid answers or guidance, and the peace is always there. And I attribute that peace to a very loving Heavenly Father.
Tonight, I feel that peace even though I am drawing a blank on the answers to so many questions. I have no idea how things will turn out, but I know things will do just that--they will turn out just as they should. They always do. So I am sitting here feeling stretched thin and a little afraid, but most of all, I am certain that this momentary darkness will soon be dispelled by lots of light.